An Open Letter To Bish

Bish, Kayla, Bishh, ellybish....

I know you stop and read stuff here from time to time so I'm going to take this time to plead with you to do yourself and the rest of us a BIG favor. I know you "love" Vikki and that the 2 of you are "best friends". I know that, despite the not -so-distant past when Vikki was calling you horrible names and accusing you of disgusting things out of her being jealous that you were getting more viewers than she was, she has really taken a shine to you and has taken you under one of her broken "wings" and that right now, in your attempts to get your life together and do the right thing for yourself,  you're just looking for support where you can find it.

I get all that and, believe it or not, as harsh as I sometime am towards you,  I sincerely wish and hope that you find the strength and ability to get well, stay well and prosper in your old age. I actually think that MANY of us on Battlecam want to see you do well for yourself, despite the digs and insults.

But you have to wake up to the reality of Vikki. Yes, I do believe that Vikki means well. Unlike others on BC who think Vikki is a mean, horrible, trolling, shit monster, I believe that at her core, she is a good-hearted person who just hasn't figured much out about life in her 40+ plus years on the planet.

That said, you have to STOP listening to Vikki give you "advice". It's TERRIBLE advice and it's coming from an emotionally/physically/mentally sick adult woman with the mentality of a 14 year old, who has lost her husband, the only man she's been with, and is "in love" with a man who A.) she has NEVER met in real life  and B.) who treats her like absolute dogshit  and C.) has just as much if not more issues, mentally and emotionally, as Vikki does.

To accept Vikki wisdom as "truth" or "fact" is dangerous and just plain retarded, especially in your current and delicate situation. Again, I get that you like that she shows you affection and love on cam and in the chatbox but seriously, SERIOUSLY, Vikki is in NO position to give you advice right now. She, herself, should be figuring out what is next in her ever age-advancing life. You have, at least, gone out and sampled the outside world and can hold up on the streets. Vikki couldn't. Not even close. SHe's been taken care of by 'Dad' for how many years now? She's practically a child and she's trying to tell you what you should to make your life better?

Come on, girl. You're smarter than this!

You don't know shit about me and I'm not going to sit here and pretend that we're "friends" because I've never met you and chances are, I never will. But I am older, wiser and have much experience in the ways of pretty much EVERYTHING in life. I'm not bragging. It's just what happens when you live live for years and try and get what you can out it before you die.

But I, like a lot of other people on Battlecam and other sites, *ARE* concerned for your well-being and we all wish you the very best and support you in your quest to fight off drug/alcohol addiction in your life. It's a MASSIVE bitch. I've lost family members and close friends to addiction and, while I'm no AA freak, i do think that you need to do way more than quit drinking for days at a time to make this wellness stick.

I don't know what your plans are from here on out but I really think, in order for you to get your life on track you're going to have to break just about ALL habits and patterns and that probably includes Battlecam. A lot of us would miss seeing you on it but hey, you can always come back when things are going well for you and, frankly, I always enjoy you when you're sober, friendly and conversational than I do when you're wasted and acting like a wayward junkie fucktard.

Anyway, my 2 cents, for what it's worth.